A week from the very dark pits of you know where...

Ok Last week must have been the worse week in a very long time. Monday, I went to school had b ball practice wasn't feeling good after ball practice. So I went home did homework and laid down. Tuesday, i ended up not going to school at all cuz i still didn't feel good. Wednesday, I went to school, and things were starting to get really hectic with Valentines Day and Spaghetti dinner and so much other stuff. Thursday, I had a b ball game at 6 at the school for the 1st round of the play-offs. We WOn!! Friday, I had some tests and quizzes which I felt like I didn't do my best but my grades prove otherwise. Friday we had another game at TCS, it was agnsit Victory from Gastonia, It was supposed to be senior nite but no one regonized the seniors until we were pulled out and someone screamed way to go seniors. Saturday, i went to work from 9-5:30 then had b ball practice from 7-8 and then took Molly home. Sunday, I worked from 9-3 came home and did some school work, and then went down to my grandmas for my aunts b day party. Well I still wasn't feeling well. Monday rolls around...BIG Game day! I got to school late, and well we left school at 11:30 to make our way down to North Augusta to play Victory. Last time, we played victory we lost horribly and I was in the ninth grade. Tonight we lost 50-17. I had 7, Dorothy had 7, ferster had 2, and Taylor had 1. I was really upset I really wanted to go all the way to state. I cried after the game it was really heart breaking. This is my last basketball game probably ever competitively. I was very upset as so was Dorothy, Heidi didn't seem like she cared which hurt 2. I don't know I just feel really upset and that things couldn't get worse. my grades are pretty decent at school but I am so busy. I am taking honors and just regular classes is really hard maybe things will get easier really soon.

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J.J. Redicks Jersey was retired yesterday..YAY!! The devils lost tho, :(. I can finally go get the jersey, so i will have his name on it. While I was watching the ceremony, baby Tyler was sitting on my lap and I had him propped up so he could watch TV with me. I started thinking if Tyler grows up a Duke fan then he will have seen one of the greats of my time get his jersey retired, that might not mean much to a lot of people but I am a HUGE duke fan and i would have loved to have watch basketball when i was growing up. Heather is now five, and well i started her young too. She loves coming to my basketball games, and afterwards she'll go "you did good Aunt Jennifer" or "I want to play like you when I grow up Aunt Jennifer" We will shoot hoops out front and she'll get frustrated cuz she doesn't make the basket then she will go "can you lower?" I will tell her no, cuz one I can't but I tell her that If she is gonna be good like me she needs to shoot on the big kids goal. I am telling you for a five year old, she shots better than me when i was in 7th grade. that might be overdoing it, but she is pretty good for her age.

MUSIC IS A BIG PART OF MY LIFE

I got a cd for Christmas from Mrs.Taylor titled "Anything worth Saying" By: Aaron Shust. I knew the song "My Savior, My God" by the back of my hand but I was listening to another song, and really just listening to the words for once and well it just made me think. Here are the Lyrics:
"Glory To You"

Great god of might, great god of wonders
giver of life, giver of grace
creator of everything before us
you had me in mind before the stars were in place

Your love surpasses all by far
We're praising You for all you are

The reason we're here and the reason we sing
is to thank you oh god and give praise to the king
we lift up our hands and we lift up our eyes and sing
you are holy
The reason we're here and the reason we sing
is to thank you oh god and give praise to the king
we lift up our hands and we lift up our minds
and we pray that all we do would bring glory to you

father of love. father of mercy
what have I done that you would think about me?
you've taken my shame, you've taken my sorrow
replaced them with life and life abundantly

you can see inside my heart
you can see inside my mind
So strip away the things
that leave me deaf and blind


I really just had to stop and focus on those words cuz God is amazing, but do I ever realize how great He is. I don't really I take advantage of Him all the time. He made everything, and do i take the time everyday to thank Him? No, I am very selfish and would rather go on doing my thing then focusing on His thang for me that day. Another Song that I really like is by: Todd Agnew "My Jesus"

Which Jesus do you follow?
Which Jesus do you serve?
If Ephesians says to imitate Christ
Then why do you look so much like the world?

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the arrogant
So which one do you want to be?

Blessed are the poor in spirit
Or do we pray to be blessed with the wealth of this land
Blessed are they that hunger and thirst for righteousness
Or do we ache for another taste of this world of shifting sand

Cause my Jesus bled and died for my sins
He spent His time with theives and sluts and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the rich
So which one do you want to be?

Who is this that You follow
This picture of the American dream
If Jesus was here would you walk right on by on
the other side or fall down and worship at His holy feet

Pretty blue eyes and curly brown hair and a clear complexion
Is how you see Him as He dies for Your sins
But the Word says He was battered and scarred
Or did you miss that part
Sometimes I doubt we'd recognize Him

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and the least of these
He loved the poor and accosted the comfortable
So which one do you want to be?

Cause my Jesus would never be accepted in my church
The blood and dirt on His feet might stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despises the proud
I think He'd prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me in I cry out loud

I want to be like my Jesus

Not a posterchild for American prosperity,
but like my Jesus
You see I'm tired of living for success and popularity
I want to be like my Jesus but I'm not sure what that
means to be like you Jesus
Cause You said to live like You, love like You
but then You died for me
Can I be like You Jesus?
I want to be like my Jesus

I am not gonna explain anything there, but I remember sum thing Russ Lee said when he was there and I am gonna go do homework after that.

When Russ Lee was giving his testimony he mentioned the Sunday he went to church, if you didn't know, he was a drug dealer, he was wearing jeans and his paw-paws shirt and he said he felt like everyone was staring at him. He wasn't dirty or anything he just didn't fit in. Just Imagine, Jesus walking down the aisle of your church, not knowing it was Jesus. People would get scared thinking bad thoughts and maybe thinking he would steal because he looked a certain way. Why are we like that? If we went and talked to people on the streets and explained to them Jesus lived like this, and He was with the thieves and lairs, maybe they would want something to do with HIm, instead of just beating with the Bible.

Not good at this kinda stuff, but it was just bothering me so yea.

Here Once again..

I haven't written in a blog in like so so long! I need to get better at doing this regularly cuz it really helps to know that it is off my mind. This is my senior year in high school and well It is finally hitting me that i won't be around the teachers who have influenced my life so much and also my coaches and those that watched me grow. We had a b ball game last night it was the last regular season home game ever. We won...:) of course..we are going to play-offs cuz we are 2nd in conference! We got our cap and gown pics bak yesterday and well it really hit me "This is it, your almost done". College is rolling around quickly. Deadlines are approaching!! I have been accepted into Gardner-Webb University and waiting on Erskine and CSU. My walk with Christ has grown in a personal way. We ordered Graduation invitations the other day and well tons of people will be inviting including my elementary mentor. I am scared now...that it will all be over in a blink of an eye. I used to beg for high school to end but I am scared of losing memories and friends. Dorothy and I are GREAT friends and we might not go to the same college and our friendship will have to last cuz u can almost never find a true friend like Dorothy. I have so many memories that I remember that make me want to cry. Basketball coaches, volleyball, and just teachers who i will miss so much when I am in college and need someone older to run to and talk to. I am crying...last night was bad but senior nite will b bad plus also if we lose play-offs or if we win state. Coach Shope has coached me in b ball from 7th-10th grade and he taught me most of my b ball skills and seeing him at b ball games that he isn't coaching just to watch us play means the world to me. Alright I'll stop for now...hopefully i will update more regular. :)