Everything You Ever Wanted

This song has so much meaning to it for 2 people actually; one is my dad and the other is a guy also but no names shall be mentioned. :) It just really was what I did for my dad and what happened. So yea Music is me!


Everything You Ever Wanted
by Hawk Nelson
album: Smile, It's the End of the World (2006)
I walk the line, leave it all behind
I've been waiting forever
Let's go back in time when I could read your mind
Still I've been waiting
It took the seasons going by to know it's not my fault
I tried to be perfect
Tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger
Tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
It's been so long since you've been home
I used to wait up forever
I used to say a prayer, wishing you were there
I'm still waiting
You told me once you'd show up, but I fell for that before
I fell to pieces then I woke up to no one
Just a picture of Jesus and a house left in pieces
It took the seasons going by to know it's not my fault
I tried to be perfect
Tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger
Tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
I want you, I need you, I want to believe you
I want you, I need you, I want to believe you
I tried to be perfect
Tried to be honest
Tried to be everything but you
I tried to be perfect
Tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger
Tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
I tried to be perfect
Tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger
Tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

Life seems to be falling in to place with a few free falls.

I graduated a week ago today..:) So exciting, but then again it was so nerve racking. Thankfully it is over. My dad spoke to my dad the day before and well he wasn't coming due to his wife who hates my guts because of what he did 2 me. If you ever really want to know what happened just call me and we will talk about it. It has happened twice in my life by two men that call me their child, and they call themselves my father. Think About it. Well ok that was thursday before I graduated. Monday of that week we had academic awards. I didn't get my B average award, for comlative award or this year. soo When they went to give out Honor sashes, I was given a ribbion instead of an Honor sash. Lets just say that hurt me badly, cuz I worked my butt off for that sash. Well my mom and Mrs. Howe found me one plus every honors graduate so we could all keep them. Which is exciting. Well I got a laptop for graduation, specking of which I am on it. >) Gateway! We willl write later on my new york trip. On the day of graduation..I received TWO scholarships worth about 3,200 together not much but every little helps. :) Well I got 12oo from USAIRWAYS which the sperm donator works for, and I think about 2000 from Woodlawn. sooo some exciting things that way, God works in mirculous ways. Tuesday I had a appt with an oral surgery cuz I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled the 18th of June. I have to have an MRI for my TMJ and well the doc went to put my insurance though and well my dad has booted me off his insurance or so the person on the phone said...to find out later he has requested me to be taken off his insurance and well I have 30 days to get anything medical done so yea..I will write more later..I am really hungary..just PRAY for me. thanks <33